all_strange_wonders: An illustration of Nita from the Young Wizards story "Uptown Local". (storm-bringer)
Not a good day, all in all. There was absolutely nothing wrong with it outwardly, but inwardly I am a wretched mess.

I don't think I would mind being a wretched mess so much if there were something I could do about it, but there isn't anything I can do. There is no action I can take to change any of this. So far time is not even providing any diminution of my distress--if anything, it is only getting worse.

I am not strong enough for this, and I feel as if I'm shaking myself to pieces trying to endure it. Nothing is ever going to be the same. This was a bad choice, with worse timing. I so badly need reassurance, but there's none to have, and without it I don't think there will be anything to go back to. I'm out of trust, and I'm out of faith. Pretty soon I'll be out of hope, too, and that will be that.

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